Stargazers

This is it. The mark of the start of vacation. I feel nerves, now that I've finally moved forward in that flowchart. I don't know what to expect, and frankly, I'm quite...scared? Of everything actually, of the uncertainty of it all. The new teachers, more difficult subjects. The thought that I would not be able to make it, and disappoint my parents. Or even the thought of not being able to continue at all. And even the feeling that maybe I don't want this. Funny hearing myself doubting after coming this far into the race. I'll just have to be strong, and there's no turning back now.

I very well hope, that I may be able to overcome these things.

Haze

This is supposed to be my end-of-term post but the thing is, it isn't really over...yet. I'm not yet done with the term, unlike my professor who said on our last meeting that "he's done with the subject" and we're like (me and my classmates) hey? only him? What about us? At least i'll try to find peace and rest for the rest of the holy week until that dreadful day on Monday. Sigh.

Right now, I've managed to dishevel my room and throw away stuff that I don't need anymore. Though I still haven't gotten to the part of sorting all those papers which unfortunately have piled up again on my room during the term. At least that momentarily taken my mind off of what would happen on Monday. I can't believe that this term is already over. It all happened so fast, and I'm not really sure if I did learn anything from the last three months. Though I admit this first quarter of the year has been the most..say...illuminating? Haha. And crazy too.

So whatever happens for the rest of the month? I'm not yet sure, but I'll try to busy meself with something. I do have some stuff in mind already. And I sure hope I could meet with my friends at this time. I MISS them, and it's been soooo long since the last time we've had a get-together. I'm sure there's a LOT of catching up to do. Sigh. I really really really miss them...

Everytime I See You

Everytime I see you my life turns upside down.

While making our project earlier, my friend started playing some music and she told me that this is her song for her current crush when it started to play in the background. And I liked the idea. I'd also like someone who would turn my already messed up life upside-down. Tho I think he does, in a way. Just recently, another friend tells me that he seems to lead me to a good direction. I don't know. Maybe it's just pure coincidence. I think that recent events happened just out of luck. To think at first I was only thinking of this person as just my imagination and now this? My sister is right, I really am messed up alright. Lol. Maybe I'll turn back to normal after the term break... I hope. XD

Mad Life

Yes, a little more and I will definitely be insane.


Here's my mantra for the week:

The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not flunk,
He keepeth me from lying down when I should be studying.
He leadeth me beside the water cooler for a study break;
He restoreth my faith in study guides.
He leads me to better study habits.
For my grades' sake.
Yea, though I walk through the valley of borderline grades,
I will not have a nervous breakdown;
For Thou art with me.
My prayers and my friends, they comfort me.
Thou givest me answers in moments of blankness
Thou anointest my head with understanding.
My test runneth over with questions I recognize.
Surely passing grades and flying colors shall follow me
All the days of my examinations,
And I shall not have to dwell in this school forever.
Amen.