Bleeding Out

Do you know just what it's like to burn inside so often?
To see the life you give is not in vain and not forgotten
To feel it all.... i feel it burn in time
I give it all.... and still i feel denied

Now that i am bleeding out
I pray for something
Now that i am bleeding out
I fade to nothing
Now that i am bleeding out..... bleeding out

Is there no place safe, and nothing sacred for the living
I feel the life inside me stain the ground with love and yearning
To feel it all (to feel it all)
To feel it come alive
To give it all (to give it all)
So you won't be denied

Now that i am bleeding out
I pray for something
Now that i am bleeding out
I fade to nothing
Now that i am bleeding out

Be the change you wish to see, and all the world gives something

Now that i am bleeding out
I pray for something
Now that i am bleeding out
I fade to nothing
Now that i am bleeding out
Bleed...

Wow, two posts in one week. All I can say, this last week of school, is a blast. It's got its ups and downs and this must be the worse. What do you get when it's Friday the 13th, you took your last effing difficult final exam, and received a news that your grandmother's sister already passed away first thing in the morning? It's such a pain, I feel numb everywhere. I feel numb in every little inch of my body. So many things happening in such a short span of time, I don't think my slow reflexes can catch up with it.

And then I remember I only have one week of vacation. Then I'll start immediately with my internship next Monday. Hurrah for me!

*lyrics from http://www.lyricsdomain.com/4/dishwalla/bleeding_out.html

Why does the sun go on shining?
Why does the sea rush to shore?
Dont they know its the end of the world
cause you dont love me anymore?

Why do the birds go on singing?
Why do the starts glow above?
Dont they know its the end of the world
It ended when I lost your love

I wake up in the morning and I wonder
Why evrything is the same as it was
I cant understand, no, I cant understand
How life goes on the way it does!


So many things could really happen in a span of 24 hours... one time you're okay, suddenly you feel like the world has fallen over you and crushed you into pieces. Sometimes, keeping on guard with things has its advantages, because once you've let it down, you're doomed for life. And things just go spiraling down, like a tornado or something. I can't find a more fitting song for this post, the only thing that is on my mind now is that it's the end of the world... and I still have to study for one more exam. 'kuso!!

God, help me...

Counting Blue Cars

There you are again
I see you all the time
We haven’t really met yet,
But you know, I don’t mind
’Cuz I think today’s the day
I’m gonna go right up and say to you
Would it be alright
If I called you up sometime?

There you go again
I let you get away
At least I’ve got more time
To think of what I might say (like)
“Couldn’t we be good” (or maybe)
“Don’t you think that we should find
Some quiet little place where we’d make love all day?”

Come and talk to me
What are you waiting for
’Cuz I can see you passing every day and I’m always wanting more
Come and talk to me
What are you gonna do
’Cuz I can’t seem to get the nerve to get off my own ass
And come and talk to you

You know I love the type
You look like you’ve been up all night
And yet somehow still look beautiful
You do it all at the same time
Whenever you walk by
You always look me in the eyes
And in that moment
I knowthe same thing’s on your mind

It always seems to be that I let the good things pass by
Because I let my fear stop me (but not this time)


Funny, the other night (actually I think it was Sunday night) I heard this song playing on the radio and somehow, it kind of reminded of me. Well, I don't think that I'd be going right up to someone and tell the person something like 'would it be alright if i called you up sometime'. Not really thinking of doing something like that... but yeah, I suppose, there was a time where I was always seeing someone passing by. Ah, those were peaceful days. I was alone in my own little world observing people. Now, it's gone...berserk. Nyaha. Oh well, enough nonsense. Maybe I'll edit this post again when my brain is working better.

Comments on the lyrics (and the post) are highly welcome. :))

*lyrics from http://www.kerinoble.com/lyrics.html