Something Stupid

Finally, the moment I've been waiting to come. I thought I won't care anymore. But still I was shocked, and at the same time, excited. But then I also realized... that I was afraid. I was afraid of getting close. And I guess that's the reason why I like keeping distance.

September

Do you remember the 21st night of September?
Love was changing the minds of pretenders
While chasing the clouds away

Well, this is not the twenty-first of September, rather it's the second day of my classes and so far I already have two term projects cooking in my hands and a number of reportings. Gah... just what I love. Currently I'm enrolled in six subjects, with two of them being my majors. Now I'm contemplating whether I made the right decision of taking electronics class than enrolling in sociology instead. Even though I have a lot of free time, it seems to me that most of it would be used on a lot of things to do and must be spent wisely. I'm afraid I may not have enough time of going online as much as I used to anymore. It's really different now and I should be more focused if I really want a good outcome for this term. And there are no room for mistakes either.

Am I being too uptight with myself? I don't know. Maybe it's just right that I'd be more stricter on myself and be more focused on my studies. I think I've done enough relaxing before and maybe this is payback time for me. This might be the only time I have left to relax while projects aren't pouring down yet. Well, this is it. It's the start of the term and there's no turning back. I hope I'll be able to do things right the first time. Wish me luck. :)

Ben

*You don't remember me,
but I remember you.
I lie awake and try
so hard not to think of you.
But who can decide
what they dream?
And dream I do.

Happy Birthday. :)

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Anyways, I just got home from school today. I was supposed to get my EAF and pay my fee at the same time. So I came to school, went to the conservatory (where we could get the EAFs), then I found out my EAF could not be printed. They told me the reason and I immediately went to my favorite place in the Velasco building only to find out that the person who's the key to get my EAF printed is not there. And the student assistant wasn't sure if he'd show up in the afternoon. She suggested that I could come back tomorrow but still call the office before hand just to be sure. Well, like I'm going anyways. I've decided to do my thing first thing on the first day of school (which is Monday). Gah. I can't believe I will already get a headache on the first day of class. Oh well. Things won't always go your way, but till when? I just dragged myself to school for nothing. Grr. What a waste of time.

So I've decided to go home and rode a bus on my way home and finally, I've found a bus which doesn't have Love Radio ((or any similar radio stations)) on the background. And it was my current favorite station too ((thanks to Jakey)) so it was quite nice trip. I've also decided to pass by the mall before going home. Just to cool off. Hehe. I texted my friend and asked her if we could go home together but I found out that she doesn't have classes that day. Lol. I strolled at the mall for a while, looking around for some stuff. I also went to the bookstore. Eventually I got tired of walking so I've decided to finally go home. :)

Well, that's how my day went. Nothing unusual. Hehe. Oh well I don't want to rant about that school stuff again.

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*Taking Over Me~Evancescence

Sound Trip: The Cape of Storms

On deep thoughts...


So where do I sail?
A ship losing control
My cries swallowed up, lost in the ranging sea

So where has [love] gone?
Will I ever reach it?
The Cape of Storms echoes the pain I feel inside